I spent a long time being the person everyone else needed me to be. I was good at it. I smiled through things that were breaking me. I helped everyone around me heal while quietly drowning in patterns I couldn't name and beliefs I didn't even know I was running.
My journey through the Five Gates wasn't linear and it wasn't clean. Artemis found me in early motherhood — in the disorientation of an identity I hadn't been prepared for, in the body I didn't recognize, in the support I didn't know I was allowed to ask for.
Persephone arrived in 2019 when the ground cracked open beneath me — a friendship rupture that sent me inward for the first time, forcing me to ask questions I had no outside answer to. That descent took years. Years of grieving, processing, unraveling, and rebuilding. I was not the same woman on the other side of it. I wasn't meant to be.
"The nervous system keeps us in the familiar — even when the familiar hurts. My work is to help you build a new familiar."
Lilith came as truth. As the moment I stopped abandoning myself to maintain relationships that were costing me everything. As the rage and grief that finally had nowhere to go but through. And on the other side of that releasing — space. Real space. The kind where aligned relationships could finally find me.
Inanna stripped the rest. The career. The title. The version of myself I'd been performing for years. On Friday the 13th, I got the call that I was being let go — and I felt relief. The in-between that followed was the hardest part. Not the ending — the becoming. The long, unglamorous stretch where the old identity is gone and the new one hasn't fully arrived.
And then Hecate. The crossroads. The torch. The understanding that everything I had lived through wasn't a detour — it was the training. That the falling apart was the whole point. That I was being shaped into something that could hold space for others to do the same.
So I built The Inner Temple. Not from theory. From scar tissue. From a deep, cellular knowing that insight is not the same as transformation — and that women deserve the full journey, not just the beautiful parts.